Yarns by Adults

When I was sixteen years old, all I could think about was how great it would be to have a boyfriend. I had read stories, and had dreamed about meeting that handsome sweet guy, filled with passion and romance. That amazing guy who would want to be with me.

So, when I realized that my imaginary perfect guy, did not exist in the people that I knew, it didn't take long for me to experiement with the idea of online dating. I found a reputable dating site, and signed up. I was shocked by how many guys messaged me at first, but saw that they were mostly ugly, or not up to my standard. I was ignoring every message from every guy who didn't fit my qualifications, and was about to give up when Carlos messaged me.

Carlos was what I had always looked for in a guy. He was probably what every girl looked for in a guy. He has an amazing body, great sense of humor, he was sweet, and caring. He had passion, and he was smooth. He knew how to give a compliment, and he never made anyone feel inadequate. He flirted with me regularly and I have to admit, it was really flattering. I quickly started imagining having him as my boyfriend.

However, soon I was to figure out that although Carlos flirted with me, he seemed to flirt with everyone! Even ugly girls! It was quite insulting and confusing, why would someone so handsome and perfect waste his time on a girl not worthy of his treasures?

It took me a little while, but I came to the conclusion I had to ask Carlos out myself before he fell for some undeserving girl. I had never asked any guy out before though, and was really nervous just thinking about asking him out. I had to keep reassuring myself, I was beautiful, I was sweet, I had that romantic passion to keep him interested. I pumped myself up, and then the day came when I had the confidence to go through and ask him out.

He replied a flat no.

I felt my heart drop, as he told me that I was very beautiful, but seemed artificial. He wanted to connect with someone who was not only beautiful on the outside but the inside too. Apparently, me wanting to date him for his looks was not being beautiful on the inside. So, Carlos never officially became my boyfriend, although we remained friends. However, I myself had an epiphany, that to be happy, you don't need Mr. Flawless. You need someone who loves you for you are inside.