Yarns by Adults

Okay after going through some really hard last months I think I am ready to try my hand at online dating. My heart was broken to pieces when I proposed to my ex girlfriend and she told me that she couldn't marry me because she was still in love with her ex husband. Here I was, for weeks planning the perfect proposal for her. I bought a 3 carat ring and booked a room at an expensive hotel, we had a romantic dinner and when I went to ask her to be my wife instead she told me that she was going to be a wife very soon, just not mine. She was going to go back to a man that spent 10 years belittling her and cheating on her. I meant so little to her that she could break my heart to go back to being this horrible mans wife.

I am not to keen about the whole online dating thing either but I need to try anything that will help me get over this whole fiasco that happened with this woman. If it means having to go online to find some dates then so be it I guess, because I know that I certainly don't want to go to any bars to meet anyone. Now that would be scary, the whole dating scene is scary and of all the options out there online dating seems the safest bet to me. At least that way if a woman is rejecting me I won't even know about it, they can just pass my picture by and ignore me all they want and I won't even know about it and as far as I am concerned that is perfect.

So i'll give online dating a few months shot and if it works out then that is great and if not I wont have lost anything or I wont have had my heart shattered into a million little pieces. The next time around I am also going to be more careful, I am not going to give myself so easily, if the fiasco taught me anything it was that, to take things slower and not give too much because the other person can take it all and in a matter of seconds turn it all into a pile of manure. That is something that I will never allow to happen to me ever again.